Wow i am a freshman and i have all my weekends booked till the next year. well im not complaining because i know God is going to do something great through me!! now all i have to do is submit myself totally to him, but is it really that easy. aparantly not because i have had a very hard time getting over my old ways and letting God totally work through me. it actually got so bad that at one point there were tears in my eyes and i said.."I'm done God, I'm all yours, use me for your will and no one else s." God i am sorry i have been so stubborn. i totally and completely submit to you.

i have realized something in the past few days. late at night i would toss and turn because i was having dreams about family members dying and my family going through poverty, and i would wake up and thank the lord that that wasn't true. this has made me realize that i need to me more grateful for what i have. i mean its a miracle that God gives me oxygen every day. the Bible says that our lives are but a vapor, that they can be gone in an instant. if that is so ( which it is because its in the Bible ) than i want to live my life to the fullest. i don't want to stand before God and he shake his head with a heavy heart and say that i did not please him. i would give anything if when i got to heaven He would say "you have done well, my good and faithful servant." that's all i want. i want to be clay in his hands. that he would mold and shape me so that he could use me in any way he wanted. it would be my HONOR to serve him. i don't think most people realize the importance of that sentence. it would be an absolute privilege bring people to Jesus. there is no other way that i would spend my life. Dear Lord, break my heart for the broken hearted lord show me the pain in their hearts lord so i can show them the love of Jesus, God bring me to a new level of tenderness God. i want to be so full of the Holy Spirit that when i walk into a room you take over and people are forever changed. Bless the youth lord they are ignorant in their ways but they have tender hearts. they need the love of a Father. your love God. Give me more Boldness God keep on molding and shaping me God because i know you are not done yet. the same things i have prayed over my life, i pray onto others. in Jesus name i pray

Amen

I got back from our youth camping trip about 2 days ago and i have to say besides the fire ants it was really awesome. and I'm not just talking about all the fun we had i think that we really came closer together as a youth group. it all started when we realized that some of our youth group had decided to go hiking at night with a chaperon at night. after we all stopped saying how stupid they were being going out in the middle of the night. we came together and prayed it came to the point where the leaders had to go out and look for them. me and another girl were left in charge. we got all the youth out and we gathered in a circle and started praying and thanking God for delivering them through the wilderness. i was actually pretty emotional because i was thinking about what i would do if my brother was out there. no one would stop me from going out there and looking for him. one of the girls we were with was freaking out because her brother was actually out there. and i think that during that time of our youth being missing we really came together. at that time there was no drama there was no bickering. we were just praying and God gave me a peace and i knew that they would find their way back to camp and eventually they did and they were really proud of themselves haha praise God.

I think i figured out what i am supposed to do with my life. I don't think that i will be much of an evangelist like my sister will probably be when the time comes. and I'm most likely not going to be a musician that travels around the world like my brother will probably do. i was talking to God last night and i asked him to show me what his plans are for me. i have to admit that this idea has been haunting me for a while. I'm fixing to enter my first year of High School and i wanted to get a head start on thinking about a career that i would love to do that also will glorify God. I think i fell asleep because next thing i know i wake up and i start thinking about Psychology which i can barely even spell right. but i like the idea of being a psychiatrist i like to help people. but i wouldn't be doing this to help them figure out their problems. I would tell them about Jesus and how God is a big God and he is bigger than any problems that they may have. so I'm not wishy washy about my career decision anymore because i know this is what i want to do. and no thought will dissuade me like how will i find work because like i said before my God is a Big enough God, not to mention a more than enough God and i open myself up to him so he will use me to reach out to people. no matter what career you have God can still use you. I don't care if you work at a Gas station or a Fast Food Restaurant he will use you. i find that amazing.

well i guess that is all i have to say for today...later!!
Always Ashley

Now don't be mad at me. i know that i have not been writing as much as i would have liked to, but i guess the truth of the matter is that i didn't really have anything to say, but now i do. we were getting off late from the revival meetings as usual (not like that's a bad thing!). as many of you probably know that spending many hours sitting under God's word can really work up your appetite, anyways we decided to go eat at steak n' shake. we got to the entrance of the building and there was a homeless man sitting in front of the door asking for change. I think that everyone pretty much knows that most of them don't buy food with the money. He asked us if we had any change on us. My friend that was with us said no, but if your hungry we will feed you. I'm not sure what his answer was because I was already inside. we all got a table and after we ordered the man came inside. one of the girls that was with us read him this deliverance cards that you read to them and they say the prayer to ask Jesus to come into their hearts. He said the Prayer and started crying. He took the card and walked out. we were Excited especially me. its amazing how powerful God is. After we finished our food the man came back, he was slurring his words so he must of had a few Beers. he noticed we were still there and came over to thank us for the card. He said he read it three times. we had a good long talk with him. we told him that he has purpose and that God put him on this earth for a reason, also that God loves him SOOO much. he sat and listened. he told us how stupid he thought he was for always getting drunk. he said even though we were very loving people and that he does believe in God, he still was going to go across the street and get more Beer. we didn't judge him, we didn't tell him he was being "Sinful" by getting drunk all the time. we sat there and listened to what he had to say. sometimes if you just listen some of the things you might hear will surprise you. but what i learned from this experience is that Gods timing is perfect. No matter what you think should happen and how you want it to play out, God always pulls through and his way is always better. Sometimes ill be like..God when is this gonna happen for me when will i finally do this and it Blows my mind that God always provides for me I have what i need in His perfect timing. it makes me mad at myself that i never was this open with people about the love of Jesus. If he has done such an amazing thing in my life why would i not want to share that with others. can you imagine that i used to be embarrased? but you see God has given me a new bound boldness that i will take with me ever, Because God lives in me I am his Temple his presence dwells in me.

Always, Ashley

Something absolutely amazing happened on Wednesday 16 2010. The Fire of God rained down on our youth group. i believe that god is going to do something amazing with our church and many churches in this nation. I Thank God that this is going to be a weekly thing, and that we will be carriers of the Holy Spirit and that everyone we come into contact with will be effected by the presence of the lord. another totally awesome thing God did in my life was he used me! let me repeat that just so you can get the full effect...HE USED ME! some of you may be like so what. but to me it blows my mind. when i was younger i thought "yeah right there are much more qualified people to be used by God, Instead of me." um wrong. God wants to use all of us. we just have to listen to the Holy Spirit and be obedient to Him. something Incredible happened to my Brother yesterday also. we were praying for him and he got filled with the Holy Spirit and started speaking in tongues. now i just have to keep on praying that the same thing will happen to my sister. ha ha I'm telling you right now this is just the beginning, God is doing something. i don't now how many times i have to say this for people to believe it. Just get ready, and come on for the ride..its gonna be fun.


Until next time

Ashley

My thoughts for today are about girls. it really confuses me why they act the way they do with boys. Don't get me wrong I'm not judging anyone but it seems like instead of putting their trust and love in Jesus they let some Immature Boy handle their heart (no offense guys i know not all of you are immature). what seems to escape some of these girls mind is that guys cant take care of your heart like Jesus can. God created your hearts people, i think he would know what they need. I would just like to share a quick story with you guys. If you read my first blog than you probably know that i have recently been changed at revival meetings held at a local church. Well it wasn't just me who went to these meetings, a group of us went. One of the girls that was with me, (lets call her Jamie) has a boyfriend, (lets call him Bob) and one night Jamie was completely changed from the inside out. she kept going to revival for the remainder of that week. Monday she wasn't there. We thought she was sick or something, Tuesday another no show. we had to find out through Myspace that she had been hanging out with her boyfriend. don't take this the wrong way, we weren't making a big deal out of her ditching church. It was just the fact that she gave up what happened to her at the meetings. she experienced something totally amazing and when the week was over she let it slip through her fingers all so she could hang out with her boyfriend. i don't know about anyone else but if a guy was getting between me spending time sitting under the Anointing then i would dump that boy right away. Do me a favor girls wait till you are out of school to start dating. it makes everything a whole lot easier, and if a guy asks you out invite him to church.. you never know what happens.