i have realized something in the past few days. late at night i would toss and turn because i was having dreams about family members dying and my family going through poverty, and i would wake up and thank the lord that that wasn't true. this has made me realize that i need to me more grateful for what i have. i mean its a miracle that God gives me oxygen every day. the Bible says that our lives are but a vapor, that they can be gone in an instant. if that is so ( which it is because its in the Bible ) than i want to live my life to the fullest. i don't want to stand before God and he shake his head with a heavy heart and say that i did not please him. i would give anything if when i got to heaven He would say "you have done well, my good and faithful servant." that's all i want. i want to be clay in his hands. that he would mold and shape me so that he could use me in any way he wanted. it would be my HONOR to serve him. i don't think most people realize the importance of that sentence. it would be an absolute privilege bring people to Jesus. there is no other way that i would spend my life. Dear Lord, break my heart for the broken hearted lord show me the pain in their hearts lord so i can show them the love of Jesus, God bring me to a new level of tenderness God. i want to be so full of the Holy Spirit that when i walk into a room you take over and people are forever changed. Bless the youth lord they are ignorant in their ways but they have tender hearts. they need the love of a Father. your love God. Give me more Boldness God keep on molding and shaping me God because i know you are not done yet. the same things i have prayed over my life, i pray onto others. in Jesus name i pray

Amen